Monday, August 5th, 2002
at 10:05 p.m.
THE MOST INFURIURATING THING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED happened yesterday. I am so very bitter.
For the first time the other day, I decided to buy a lottery ticket. The jackpot was for 25 million dollars. I picked the number 2, 7, 12, 19, and 'hot ball' 4
THE NUMBERS WERE: 3, 8, 13, 20, and 'hot ball' 5. AHHHH, THE CRUEL TORMENT!!!!
The odds for that are just as much as winning!! I could not believe it when they drawing the numbers. One by one I was like, NO WAY, how is this possible?!?! I am soooo embittered. Twenrty-five million dollars. Wow, that would have helped me out SO MUCH. I could actually get a place in New York bigger than a shoebox.
Anyway, I'ce been doing a lot of thinking, and I think that I'm going to apply to The Juilliard School as a transfer student. I know how impossible that goal seems since they only take 20 drama students per year, but what's the harm in applying? I'm also looking at The New school but the best thing would be to get into 'the bootcamp of theater training.' Hell, I know a girl who got into in for dance (ballet) and another who got into it for music (voice), but I don't know anyone who'd been accepted for drama! Maybe I can be that someone. I doubt I am talented enough, unless I find some unknown power within me and the panel can see it too, but like I said, I may as well audition--it will be a learning experience in any case.
At least I've been having a more relaxed time here. I've read three books, two of them worth talking about--The Nanny Diaries and The Lovely Bones.
The first, The Nanny Diaries, was a book I expected to be similar to "Bridget Jones" or the like--you know sassy and touching, which it was, but it also had a very serious point to make about how the upper class rely on other’s to raise their children, and though they barely know them, or what;s good for the kids, they make arbitrary rules and are very harsh on the nannies, the only people the children are close to. It was an interesting look into the relationships between these people, and at the lives of the privileged in New York. When I was done I made the fervent promise that if I choose to have children, I will raise them myself, thankyouverymuch. It was ridiculous how the parents didn’t even know their own children--and really sad.
The second book, The Lovely Bones, was a very emotional, but really well-written, read. It’s about a girl who has been raped and murdered and is looking down on her family and friends from heaven, watching them go through the tragedy and then try to move on. She also keeps track of her killer, and describes the type of life everyone is choosing, able to see their pasts and thoughts. It was a very intense experience, especially since I read it (like most books) in one sitting. When I was done, I was exhausted, but very glad I read it. I highly recommend! It’s very moving and so unique. . .
Chloe © 2004